Do you have a symbol that represents your child? Maybe it is a butterfly, tree or bird etc. Share how you came to find that symbol and what it means to you. Do you believe your children send you signs at all? Have you had any? How did they help you?
. Bunnies
I always imagined my sweet Charis to be a cute little bunny. In fact, her flat nose (cartilage and bone formation was an issue for Charis' genetic condition), reminded me so much of a bunny's cute little wriggly nose. Bunnies are naturally prey animals, needing love and protection. I just wanted to protect my little bubbles, my little Charis all my life. When I take care of my pet bunnies, and hold my pet bunnies, I dream of how sweet and cute my Charis could have been. I also never go anywhere far without Charis' stuffed bunny.
. Bubbles
Bubbles always remind me of Charis, as it was her nickname. At her graveside memorial, our friends and families sent loving wishes to her and to their loved ones, as they blew bubbles and watched the bubbles rose to the sky. When I visit Charis, I bring a bubble stick with me and blow her bubbles, watching these bubbles float to other children's graves, down to the grass, and up to the sky. I think of her in heaven with the other little angels.
. Light
Whenever we miss Charis, we light a candle. We picked up this habit when we first learned of the International Wave of Light last October, when parents, grandparents and families across the entire globe would light a candle or create a candle-lit art to remember our babies in heaven. Whenever I miss her, I grab one of these mason jars, light a candle and place it on my bedside table as I read, talk to Daryl, or just simply lie in bed and think of her. She is my light. She reminds me that even during suffering and pain, that there is always God's grace and hope.
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